Lyrics

I. Anno Domini

You see me?
I crawl on all fours

I’m a beast
I cry like wolves

I scream
I wander though time

I’m a dream
I haunt you at night

I am a demon hiding in the darkness
I can see the light but I will never reach it

I see you
You warm up to him

You’re holy
You speak to Seraphim

You are beauty
Your grace transcends time

And you slipped me
A nd you haunt me every night

II. Swallow the Sun

A severed hand, A bloody mouth
A silken rope that binds honour’s demise
A loss of faith, A broken trust
The lion’s smile blinds your burning eyes

A caged beast, A rebel soul
A betrayal that unwinds until the end of time
I will swallow the sun
I will set the world to come undone
And when my chains are broken the lemming hearts will run
I will swallow the sun

A show of teeth, A broken sword
The barge no longer holds, the flood, it flows
A shielded heart of rusted steel
A kinsman kills his own, His blood is cold
A loss of soul, a broken troth
The world the gods have sown will be swallowed

Betrayal is the card wolves are dealt
And we are in chains until the end

III. Son of the Hunter

I never had a soul despite what my eyes told
I lost it in the angels war of old
My eyes are black as space and in them you won’t find a trace
Of anything but raw passion and pain

I never took your soul despite what you’ve been sold
When our eyes met your heart was black as coal
If anything was done, well, maybe I just gave you one
And now my ghost wanes in New England’s sun

I can’t see where I’m heading
I lost track of where I’ve been
I stare through rain-soaked windows
Before an empty glass of gin
I turn from my reflection
I can’t gaze upon the dead
I’m scared of where I’m heading
I lost faith in where I’ve been

I’m ever hunting souls despite what deaths unfold
Until the day my eyes forever close
To set my conscious free, To find what’s whole in me
To wander spaces deep infinite sea

I’ll be hunting darkness down
And from it I will cut a shroud
I’ll drape it over all around here
I’ll force it deep inside the ground
All love is dead and won’t be found
You won’t be seeing me around here anymore

IV. This is Not Lucid

The night is raining, full of trees
Of dead and drowning leaves
Like a wilted poem, A decrepit home
Made up with floors of three
And my demon’s in the distance
I am scared and so is she

I follow…

The little ones of coldest stares
With their skin ripped off in places
Bleeding thoughts with mouths agape
Eyes filled with marble casings
And I feel their lonesome artist
He is near and he is pacing

His heart is hollow…

I fell into the blackest hole
Lucidity was never know
In the world of half-lit catacombs
Reverberating moonlight drones

A monitor is shining on three faces
Through the crescent glass
I’ve seen this older place before
And its life will never pass
I move into its half-light
And its hold is holding fast

It’s awake…

Tiny, stuffy project place
The stove-light glow adorns
Their faces pass, their skin burnt black
They howl like a storm
And I see them through the screen
It is dirty, it is torn

They scream and curse and cry…

There’s an Elm churchyard
I watch myself inside
We’re laughing and we’re talking
Of how we conduct our lives
The north’s brutal daughter seduces
Raising her hips high

I open up my eyes…

V. Dithyramb

The shining eyes you see
Beneath the vines and starlit skies and trees
Will never bring you peace
For they mask a tide of death inside that needs to be set free

He is the death seeker
And I am of him
Glossed over eyes within the grove
As night falls over Rome
And I am of him

You offer no defense
Intoxicated bliss comes with fevered kiss
Within passionate throes
Amongst moans and cries the self dies

He is the madman upon the hill
The limbs are torn
The blood is spilled

He drove the women insane
They lay down in his name but have never felt his pain
And I am of him
I come with the storm in seducing forms

I am the madman upon the hill
In ecstatic frenzy
The blood is spilled

VI. Evoke You

Your chords penetrate my walls
Uninspired strumming carries down the hall
You put it down and drown yourself again
I’ve got to break it to this ghost that he’s been long since dead

You give ‘em all you’ve got except your soul
What’s whole in you is missing and you speak so fucking cold
And now I’m brisk in you like December’s breeze
But you and I both know that someday I’ll just be a bad memory

We all live life in circles
We keep torturing our hearts
With those old familiar demons
That we conjure in the dark

I can’t live without getting in too deep
I’m always making sure the gun is pointing back at me
It’s my abandoned will that evokes you in the night
You can’t see the safe path when the demons take your eyes

VII. Herne's Oaks

Shattered starlight claims the night
Hesperus bleeds impacting light
As the roots begin to shake
Deep beneath the tragic oak
I wrap myself in midnight’s cloak
And it won’t be long until the hunt breaks free
And the blade of my broad axe smiles…

Head to foot
Black as soot
Heed my call
Rage be my all
When the pack is loosed
I’ll hunt you down
And that’s enough for me…

See the stag’s eye catch the light
Of Luna’s gaze this icy night
With coldest poise, I raise the blade
Venus enters Libra’s beam
And at this time, I truly see
That this curse is really hunting me
And the blade of my broad axe smiles…

VIII. Oriens Astrum

War in heaven cuts the soul
The Son Of Morning walks alone
The Prince Of This World tempts the soul
To cast aside all faiths in gods unknown

So, I stalk where death hides to find truth

He is the death seeker
And I am of him
Casted out from God’s light
A rebel angel in the night
And I am of him

Knowledge in his hand a flame
Transcending all below in mind and grace
He drove the hordes of Christ insane
They curse his name but have never felt his pain

So I stalk where death hides to find you

He is the death seeker
And I am of him
Casted out from God’s light
A rebel angel in the night
And I am of him

We’re opening veils in this smoke-laden room
We invoke your heart
And through candlelight haze your essence looms
We invoke your heart

IX. The Demons in the Circle

I wonder what’s been going on with you since our lives got rearranged
And I know you fear and question things but, baby, it’s not all that strange
You might grab your crucifix and pray and pray and pray
But we’ll all haunt our old addictions by the end of the day

I know I sometimes smoke a lot and drink too much but my spirit’s never changed
And everything that’s ever happened, good or bad, has brought me to this day
And I know I sometimes stumble along the way
But the fire in my heart has always kept the monsters at bay

We all come back to the places we know
You can’t run from your only home
And, for all I’ve seen, this is the only home I know

I drove up the hill so many times to see the sea that lies beyond the way
And after all these years of living here I’ve finally come to love the grey
But a feeling of anxiety surrounds me in this place
Because I’ve got so much left to do before I can rest in this place

So I stare into this ocean’s blue; as cold as a goddess’ eyes
And I close my eyes and breathe the air knowing that I’ll have to bide my time
And know that I’ll come back to the place I love someday
When all is said and done and nothing’s in my way

X. The Cleansing Scourge

In a flash of fire
It is burned away
The future’s hope
And the memory’s pain
The purest love
And its noble ways
The scarred innocence
Of a heart-broken face
The end of fear
Regrets and hate
The one you dream of
All night and day
The unbridled laugh
Of your child at play
In a flash of fire
They are burned away

In a flash of fire
It is burned away
The heavens above
And the Wolf’s weary chains
The shackles that bind
To life’s unforgiving flames
The lies in your head
That keep the truth at bay
The sun that penetrates
The twilight’s grey
The fickle gods
And their tears of rain
The touch of her flesh
That burns in your veins
In a flash of fire
They are burned away

XI. Medicine Man

He slipped his pills in your mouth
His wine washed it all down
In that unholy desert town
And when you fell to the ground
The strangers crowded around
And your ears entertained the muffled sounds
Of stilettoed heals
And the DJ’s appeals
To the sedated Las Vegas crowd
But that’s the price that you pay
When you resign your fate
To the medicine man that you found

But you don’t seek death
You just like to court it by night
So, that when the morning comes
It’s just you and the sun
And you’ve escaped with your life
One more time

The night you mixed the medicines
Like a lab experiment
In the cellars of your anatomy
Did you ever stop to think
Of anyone or anything?
The calls you claim you couldn’t see?
And it’s so often that you spoke
Of how this life’s a fucking joke
And I’ll never say I disagreed
But when you take it too far
And you burn out like a star
You know you could’ve fell on me

Because you never sought death
You just liked to court it by night
So, that when the morning comes
It’s just you and the sun
And everything’s alright

Alright?

XII. Der Vampyr

I thought it was I hunting the shadows
But I have become their pray
I felt them move through my soul
And now they are wearing my face

I can see in their eyes
When the lights fade and die
That the gates of heaven are closed
I can see in their eyes
When the lights fade and die
That, in the end, we all die alone

And it pulls me down
It pulls me down
The ferryman’s bell begins to sound
And I drown

A sister of God sings in prayer
For the pallor Venus tangled in sheets
She rides the threshold of the unknown
And I can no longer speak

XIII. The Wanderer

The eye of the sun makes play of your fear
And you shouldn’t expect me to care
You know how often I’ve been there?
You have know right to cry
When you cast your own dais
But then who truly understands self-sacrifice?

Striking out blindly at the darkness
Searching for the eye of the moon
At the heart of the winter of your soul
Someday I hope you will find the truth

He is the death seeker
And I am of him
Hanged high in his tree
All truth he shall see

Striking out blindly at the darkness
Searching for the eye of the moon
At the heart of the winter of your soul
Someday I hope you will find the truth
He drove the beast in man insane
They killed in his name but they have never felt his pain
And, as for me, I’m walking away

I hope you find the truth, I hope you find the truth someday…

XIV. Closed Casket Heart

I am nothing to you, but flesh bound in pity and waste
A dislocated voice
from your memory that screams in the night
A body that longs to be found
A sunken recess on your grounds
Where the waste from your lush oaken table
absorbs in the weeds
and then feeds my dejected disease

I am nothing to you, but residual heart-laden slime
Buried so deep beneath turning calender pages and lime
A disgrace
My pictures all turned on their face
As you race
to scrape off the flowers i placed on the lid
with my hands to your closed casket heart

I will strike you at night when your heart is not guarding the door
I will creep in your sleep and your tears will languish on the floor
You’ll awake confused by this dramatic state
And you’ll hate the silence inside you,
and call for me but I’ve been crushed by your closed casket heart

Ich bin nicht fur dich

I. The Apocatastasis

O little lamb
Once you were young
"Triumph all ye angels"
Your voice had sung

Refracted light 
Warmed your face
With stained glass dreams
Of frozen saints

Innocent faith
Cruciform heart
The spirit horse
Behind freedom's cart

O little lamb
When you were young
Your sutured wound
Began to come undone

Take me by the hand
I want to show you my new face
There was no free will to speak of
Fate forced me to this place

I hope you never leave here
I hope I never leave your grace
And I'm waiting for you by this burning star
Let me take you in my arms
Because Gabriel's flame is never far

O little lamb
With sharpened teeth
You are priceless
You are free

Within this house
They watch you fall
Since the dawn of time
You're nine days gone

You found that place
They fear to go
The Wildwood has
Called you home

O little lamb
Your coat is black
Now, we know
You're never coming back

Take me by the hand
I want to show you my new face
There was no free will to speak of
Fate forced me to this place

I hope you never leave here
You could never be replaced
And I'm waiting for you by this burning star
Let me take you in my arms
Because Gabriel's flame is never far

II. Funeral

The stairway's spinning down
Deep beneath the fertile ground
And it's burroughed out at the bottom
It tunnels through a buried town

I see all the lives I used to lead
Like scattered, petrified trees
The milestones and broken bones
Grow through the dirt ceiling

I drink the cup of the old life's blood
But it trickles from the corner of my mouth
I wrap myself in earth
To bury the devils within the self

I'm burnt out below the day
I see my dreams begin to fray
And you've got nothing left to say
I never wanted you to see me this way

I crumble like a serpent in the sun
Such a curse can't come undone
All the wild moans and broken homes
Will set me off to run

Run from you

III. Good Morning, Blackbird

Thoughts take flight on a blackbird's back
And cut across the winter morning sunrise
Its freedom laughs at how much I lack
It's out of reach, I'm out of touch and time

Because I shut my eyes and offered up my hands
To the bonds that keep me from the sky
Will you come and cut me down because I just can't stand it
Will you drag me out into the light?

A stoic wind
It carries you away
A scarlet sin
It carries you away

The seducing works of the fertile snake
Its theatre tears and lust keepsakes
In a great whirlwind
It carries you away

Good morning, blackbird, how was your night?
Did you dance and drink and drug for free?
Did he give you all the things on which you need to rely?
Or is he just the knife in your mythology?

Anticipation for your next attack
Has got me hungry for your circle disease
Bit I wrap myself in air and I won't look back
I'm calling down the skies to purge you clean

IV. To Call Up Smoke

O the smoke blows through the trees
Eyes blind as you're perfumed in kerosene
And the flames you cannot see
Are like the company you keep
They're ghosts roaming through your streets
Aimlessly...

See the smoke rise around her sin
Death resides where her lies begin
And you chase down the chagrin
With Bombay gin
Hell, sometimes you just can't win

Call up smoke to save the soul's demise
It blankets truth to keep you safe at night
You throw curses and you cry
In desperation, at your plight
But don't forget that you set your own fire

Behold! The smoke up in the sky
Casting shadows everywhere God hides
You pray day and night
And you don't know why
"Hey God, can you show me some light?"

Feel the smoke whisk out from your mouth
Blending with your breath's congested sound
And sometimes you think out loud
When your patience hits the ground
"Next time, I won't be found
When you decide to come around."

Call up smoke to save the soul's demise
It blankets truth to keep you safe at night
You throw curses and you cry
In desperation, at your plight
But don't forget that you set your own fire

Dream the smoke inside your home
Dream in fear that you will not atone
But nightmares come and go
Like every lover you have known
But when truth arrives, you face it on your own
When truth cries, you console it on your own

V. Herne's Oaks

Shattered starlight claims the night
Hesperus bleeds impacting light
As the roots begin to shake
Deep beneath the tragic oak
I wrap myself in midnight’s cloak
And it won’t be long until the hunt breaks free
And the blade of my broad axe smiles…

Head to foot
Black as soot
Heed my call
Rage be my all
When the pack is loosed
I’ll hunt you down
And that’s enough for me…

See the stag’s eye catch the light
Of Luna’s gaze this icy night
With coldest poise, I raise the blade
Venus enters Libra’s beam
And at this time, I truly see
That this curse is really hunting me
And the blade of my broad axe smiles…

VI. The Demons in the Circle

I wonder what’s been going on with you since our lives got rearranged
And I know you fear and question things but, baby, it’s not all that strange
You might grab your crucifix and pray and pray and pray
But we’ll all haunt our old addictions by the end of the day

I know I sometimes smoke a lot and drink too much but my spirit’s never changed
And everything that’s ever happened, good or bad, has brought me to this day
And I know I sometimes stumble along the way
But the fire in my heart has always kept the monsters at bay

We all come back to the places we know
You can’t run from your only home
And, for all I’ve seen, this is the only home I know

I drove up the hill so many times to see the sea that lies beyond the way
And after all these years of living here I’ve finally come to love the grey
But a feeling of anxiety surrounds me in this place
Because I’ve got so much left to do before I can rest in this place

So I stare into this ocean’s blue; as cold as a goddess’ eyes
And I close my eyes and breathe the air knowing that I’ll have to bide my time
And know that I’ll come back to the place I love someday
When all is said and done and nothing’s in my way

VII. When The Curtain Falls

Time is the grandest circle
And when its incessant running ends
I will be there, yes, I will be there

I will bare witness to its dawn
And when the axis shakes tidal waves and earthquakes
I will be there

I'll be there with my fear and my love
In Appalachian darkness or below New England's flood
When ashes soar like blackened doves
I'll scatter my posies across the mud

Man is a black hole coming
And when theatre Megiddo runs our inward collapse
I will be there, yes, I will be there

My reluctant curtain will fall
Shoved onstage for one last play
I am tired but I will be there, screaming

I'll be there with my fear and my love
In Appalachian darkness or below New England's flood
When ashes soar like blackened doves
I'll scatter my posies across the mud

The candle's burning low
Our shallow breaths shaped by the cold
Of a ruthless and indifferent cosmos

Any world you think you know
A Wildwood or loving home
Won't fan the ashes dying glow

Anything you think you know
Any hope your heart could hold
Any peace my words could bestow

We must let all of these dreams go
I must let all of these things go

I. Ave Apollyon

You linger in the archway
Framed by antiquity
The herald of love's twilight
The coincidence of opposites
Once pushed, the other pulls
The fragility of balance

A tight rope walk 
Through desert smoke
In desert night
The hissing Shaman 
Convulses in his high
Abandoned at dusk
In dust cloud smoke

All is nothing
And nowhere

II. To Draw the Fifteen

Devil beckons you back home
You're strung up high in the unknown
You gotta run from all those fire games
She's playing in your soul
But until that time comes you'll be
Chained down to his stone

You're trapped inside the angel's eye
She binds your will, you're crucified
But your time will soon arrive

Devil breathes within your bones
A strong desire for something more
Her tyranny upon your love
Will soon be overthrown
It's in the stars, in your cards
In the heart of your tarot

You're trapped inside the angel's eye
She binds your will, you're crucified
But your time will soon arrive

There's a wide, open road
Outside the confines of the life you've known
You can sacrifice this home
To save your fading soul

And, soon, sad eyes will know
Cast the light upon the lies
Face your fears and realize
That your time has finally arrived

III. To Reveal The Shadow Self

It's martyrdom's face that you bleed
But when Time, the Holy Unmasker,
draws back the sheet
You're just a shadow of your blinding greed

Like a pawn or a shame-filled Adam, 
you follow your Eve
All is bearing down upon you
The unforgiving rain in your soul

And when your sky is falling
There's nowhere safe you can go
We block out all light when we grieve
We wallow in storm clouds that thunder through skies with deceit

Just let go and fall from them free
And, soon, when you gaze up,
it'll only be blue skies you see

Dark were the dead city streets
When the angel of light hemmed you down
All truth is before you to see
Wear its horror and glory-golden crown

IV. To Call Up Smoke

O the smoke blows through the trees
Eyes blind as you're perfumed in kerosene
And the flames you cannot see
Are like the company you keep
They're ghosts roaming through your streets
Aimlessly...

See the smoke rise around her sin
Death resides where her lies begin
And you chase down the chagrin
With Bombay gin
Hell, sometimes you just can't win

Call up smoke to save the soul's demise
It blankets truth to keep you safe at night
You throw curses and you cry
In desperation, at your plight
But don't forget that you set your own fire

Behold! The smoke up in the sky
Casting shadows everywhere God hides
You pray day and night
And you don't know why
"Hey God, can you show me some light?"

Feel the smoke whisk out from your mouth
Blending with your breath's congested sound
And sometimes you think out loud
When your patience hits the ground
"Next time, I won't be found
When you decide to come around."

Call up smoke to save the soul's demise
It blankets truth to keep you safe at night
You throw curses and you cry
In desperation, at your plight
But don't forget that you set your own fire

Dream the smoke inside your home
Dream in fear that you will not atone
But nightmares come and go
Like every lover you have known
But when truth arrives, you face it on your own
When truth cries, you console it on your own

V. To Lye In Waite

A presence is felt
Homophonic frequencies begin to merge

Your weight on my chest
In guarded sleep, you found an aperture

Negativity reflects
Sephira twisted, inflicted upon my being

Wake me up now
The numbness comes, I can feel it feed

Qliphoth wrest my energy away
Hold me down, take my fear as your strength

I focus on the night wind's serenade
And my wide eyes can't see the shape you take

VI. Ave Apollo

When you arise from your slumber
Gold will penetrate the air
Warmth makes love to your heart and mind
In Sol Invictus, you shall bask
And there will be no more smoke in the sky